Basically I'll never understand why guys behave the way they do. I have simply come to terms with the fact that no matter what it is some how always going to be my fault that things are fucked up and that no matter what I do I'm always the crazy one that is wrong?

Whatever.

So its becoming a crazy crazy world for me. Between people who apparently like to kill to people trying to make claims on me to x boyfriends going off their rockers. I just can't win here. Maybe I should just stop trying. I'm done with the drama I'm done with the lies. I can't wait to be able to just breathe again and not worry about what's going to happen around the next corner. Love I have decided is completely over rated and who needs to know? Between pain payback and revenge for something the other may or may not have done relationships are just a fucking joke. I just want someone who can do it right and that's the end of that....oh and perferably not completely psychotic.